You ever feel surrounded by so many people yet so alone?

Yeah. Thats how I feel.

I don't even want to explain why, but since the beginning of the school year I've been going through some significant trial. And even though I've been putting on a happy face, and I have been happy at points- generally I've been really discouraged. Upset with myself, others, and generally feeling alone and lost in the world.

And I want to be desperate for God. And Im trying, but the devil has a hold on me in this sadness that I can't explain. And I can't fight it by myself, I realize that. I need God. And I need my family. and my friends. and the church.

I'm just struggling.

Just...please pray. Don't ask for the specifics, but please please pray.

Thanksgiving at the Smith House :)

So my Dads side of the family is large. Every year we try to get together as many people as we can to celebrate Thanksgiving. And we host it at my house. This year there were 20 of us eating (plus baby Eleanor. :D ) It was a big meal.

Oh yeah the table was set all through the middle of our house. It was a blast. I mean, does that not look like a party right there? :P
Not to mention the house smelled AMAZING....we had so much food...plus SEVEN PIES...its the day after and we still have half of a pecan pie, half of an apple pie, one piece of toll house and a full pumpkin pie. Oh yeah. It was crazy...Not to mention Popop's coconut cake...YUMMMM.... Yes the feast with all my relatives was incredible. Just eating and talking and laughing and being a family. :)
The table was beautiful thanks to Kiera...She decorated with this cool pumpkins and gourds Mimi gave her. And she made an amazing runner down the middle of the table with her mad art skillz. But you know what thanksgiving is really all about? We've been given so much. Life, love, happiness, a free country, a savior. God continues to show his love for us in miracles all the time.

Like this little one.

Baby Eleanor... my cousin Danny's daughter. He and his wife's first child. She's not even two months old yet...and let me tell you she is precious. You know when you see a child so beautiful you just want to have one and hold it forever? Yeah. I totally had that moment, when I saw Baby E for the first time. :)
Look at the daddy with his daughter. AHHHH I just love it so much. I love life. I love friends. I love love. And I love my family. My parents. My God. Being able to communicate with people across the world. I love babies and shopping and christmas and gifts and presents and bows and misletoe (whoa...maybe not...) and movies with friends and laughing til I cry and big bear hugs and pajamas and a warm home and a free country.

Lots of Love. :D hahaha I hope you all had as brilliant of a Thanksgiving as I did.

Harry Potter 7

So. Last thursday night I went to the Midnight Premiere of Harry Potter and Deathly Hallows.

It was awesome. Beyond awesome. Hung out with nerds and some of my best friends, hyped up on sugar, dressed up at characters. Isn't it crazy how much I look like Ginny? Oh yes it was fun.

This is just a short post cause I'm going to do a big one on thanksgiving.

Have a Great Thanksgiving you all. :)

We be tubbin.

So last weekend I got to go to DC with some of my best friends. Elizabeth Kelley and her family brought me and Andrew and Liam Allen with them to DC for a few days! It was amazing. (Please Read and Comment :D)

First on Friday, I got picked up by the Kelleys. We picked up Elizabeth at college and drove to DC. We met up with Mr Kelley and the allens and David at the hotel. The Hotel was amazing. it was totally above our style- way cool :D

We spent all the rest of the evening chilling in our suite. :D The boys had a room with two beds (and the other two slept on the floor) Mr and Mrs Kelley had the masterbedroom, and Elizabeth and I stayed on the couch bed. We chilled in the guys room and watched movies, had dinner with the fam...then we went to the hot tub. :) After watching the first X men and talking and laughing til 1 am, we finally decided to go to bed.

across the street from our hotel was the Gaylord National...and there was this RED WINDOW that was flashing the whole night. It'd go yellow and orange, then solid red. Strangest thing ever!

"Why hello ladies..."

deep voice woke us up in the morning...Kevin of course. it was almost ten and the boys were already having breakfast and elizabeth and I were still sleeping. :P Hahaha, well, we had breakfast and decided to head out into DC.

We went to Art Museum and Musuem of Natural History. :) Me, Elizabeth, Liam and David. Andrew and Kevin went somewhere else. :P I loved those museums...and their overpriced chicken tenders....

We spent our afternoon enjoying every bit of DC that we could...catching moments. Little things and details you can catch if you just look hard enough. We'd elbow eachother and go "Moment!" and then point it out. It was so cute the moments we caught. :)

Then we went to the Kennedy Center to catch a jazz show. :) The singer was brilliant, her voice was so smooth. I just loved the sound.

Oh and the roof of the Kennedy Center? Thats pretty awesome too. I had never been up there. It was soooo cool. And cold. Quite cold. But the view was amazing.

Then on the way back to the hotel. We got very lost. Went the opposite direction of the hotel. The drivers were stressed out. In the back seat we decided to be quiet cause it was late and we didnt want to get them upset. Liam was my carbuddy. I leaned on his shoulder in the car :P hahaha we were all sooooo tired....

so we went tubbin.

hot tub.

"We be tubbin." "tubbbiinnnn" "it sounds so white when you say it Kylie..." "I am white! I can't help it...We be tubbin."

hahahahha ahhh it was so awesome.

stayed up til 1 again. the red window was still there. (creepy) next morning got up earlier, cause we needed to get tickets so we could get up the washington monument. :D Then we went to the American History museum- which is now my favorite musuem. It was so cool! There was so much culture stuff there, C3PO, the ruby slippers, lion king costumes, a teenage mutant ninja turtle, the eggs from jurassic park...TONS of way cool stuff. Plus the history exhibits which were cool too. :) Especially the WW2 one...

and get this. I went to Julia Child's kitchen. :D

oh yes.

Then we went to McDonalds for lunch, then to the Washington Monument. I had never been up there before. It is SO cool. If you havent done it, do it. The view is way beyond anything I could describe. :)

Then we went home and had dinner. Chilled in the hotel as long as we could just laughing over everything...here's the highlights

"Tubbin!" Car buddy... "Why does it smell like smoke in here?" "Cause I'm so hot..." Kylie Hair, sweater hugs, MOMENT!, LEK, KEL, ELK, OX, Red window, Andrew is so lame :P, classy hotel...

Oh yes. It was fun.

thanks for taking me along guys. :D I had SOOOO much fun.

new post coming soon on Harry Potter!

COMMENT PLEASE!

Kylie

"The facts were these..."

I love the piemaker. Ned+Charlotte (chuck) Charles forever. :) ^ They are the sweetest couple.

anyway...the facts were these.

Kylie Smith thought it necessary to post on her blog as it had been 9 days and 11 hours since she had posted last. So now she seeks to tell how her life has turned out in 9 days and 11 hours.

The Harvest Party was amazing. I went as Cinderella, and I'm sure I'll post some of those pictures in later posts. I had a ton of fun serving with my friends. Then on Halloween, I actually had some of my friends over- Allie, Jenna, Kirstin, Jayme, Erik, David and Drew. :) We watched 'The Nightmare Before Christmas" then went trick or treating in my old neighborhood (yes...we teenagers went trick or treating. and it was AWESOME. So don't you judge us.) then we came back home and watched Wallace and Gromit and the Curse of the Were Rabbit. Heehehee. Yes.

Then the next day, Monday, I had lots of school to do. And it was the first day of November?? What? Where has my life gone? Well anyway, Monday evening I got off of work so I could go see Chris' Orchestra concert. It was brilliant. I loved it (though there was one piece that wasn't that spectacular :P haha and they know exactly what I mean by that.) But he played beautifully, and I felt like I was swept into a whole new musical world. Amazing. Well done Chris! :)

Of course...then I got home after curfew and um...Dad wasn't all that happy with me... :P So therefore, I am grounded from seeing friends until I'm caught up with school. Which I'm actually up doing still, Im taking a break cause my wrist hurts so bad from writing in my Literature journal. :P So yup. Catching up on school is pretty miserable. It kept me from going to the square dance and a movie night and West Side Story.

And oh yeah, the Perdues got in a car accident! But they're okay now, Praise the Lord. I was so scared for a while. Just continuing to pray for healing that they wouldn't be sore. :)

Oh and I had incars this week. Done a lot of driving, which is awesome. :) And normal work at the karate studio. Man I love those kids. :D And I learned we're getting a Chipotle in Mt. Airy! :D YES!

And had rehearsal this weekend, I can't wait for you all to see the show. It's going to be great, I can tell already. Pray for everyone involved to be mature and self controlled.

and then...more homework. And Kung Fu Panda! "Noodles...don't noodles...Kung Fu...Don't Kung Fu..." good stuff. :)

and I'm still doing homework. :P so please be praying that I would be diligent with school, wise in my decisions, and be constantly praying wholeheartedly.